Friday, June 08, 2007
i've been wondering all these while, and seriously am i being a good brother.. as in a good brother to my siblings.?!
my brother is getting his bike license so soon, and i cant help but to get more and more worried.. i know his recklessness, temper (just like mine) and playfulness.. if anything were to go wrong after i handed my bike to him, i'll never forgive myself..
since the time he took my bike out illegally when i was working, i wanted to lecture him, tell him, advise him, teach him and let him know how worried i am gonna be for him.. but how do i start..?!
i probably hasnt been a very good example to him afterall, riding, smoking, drinking, coming home late at night and everything.. he come up being affected by all these influences, and i can blame no one but myself..
i've always been wanting to talk to my sis too.. i wanted to ask her how's her life in secondary school going, how's her musical instruments learning coming along, and her ballet lessons going on.. but i didnt had a chance, or rather i didnt know how to open my mouth to ask..
why is even this so hard..?!
i didnt even know what kind of friends she's hanging out with, what type of lifestyle is she leading, where does she go all the time, what's her dreams and goals, what does she want in life, or even what has she planned for herself in the future..
and yes, i havent been a good brother afterall..
and we will walk till the end 4:40 PM