Tuesday, August 01, 2006
just saw something on ***** blog.. well.. i shouldnt be feeling this way because its not right AT ALL.. but it seems to be bothering me now..?? it's been some time we, ended up and i saw the messages on her tag, i just feel like interfering, but.. yea.. its none of my business and i ask myself not to do it.. leave it alone and just dont think about it..
when you're feeling "lonely" in some way and you need someone to be with you beside you (lonely as in single).. this girl appears.. i believes in fate and, destiny probably, but.. i dont know whether is it things coming to fast and i just couldnt take it.. i know she does "likes" me somehow, i've also already rejected her once because the feeling is just not right.. i have some "hao gan" in her and thats true, but its just the very very very super minimum, call it eye candy ok.. and i cant imagine how we will be going into a relationship and maybe a long term one..
i dont wish to hurt her, maybe because i've already did it once.. and i cant possibly force myself to accept her because she's not so-called my type.. she's not the kind of girl i want to spend my life with.. and i know even if we start, we'll just end it very soon.. i cant avoid her, as i said i wouldnt do such things..
eliza, please tell me what to do, i've gotten too much responses and i trust you because you're one of the most matured inside my circle of female friend..
and we will walk till the end 11:49 AM