Friday, March 10, 2006
i'm feeling numb.. totally numb.. normally i tend to be stressed and sad after quarreling with my folks.. well, i'm not at all this time.. i don't know why.. but i just don't feel that things are at my fault, therefore i'm not gonna give a damn..
when i said this, correct, i quarrel with my parents again.. police called and said i'm caught stealing cashcards and i gave them my parents number.. WTF LA.. one cashcard is only $20.. and i've to steal 10 cashcard to make it $200 or so or even lesser.. maybe 100 to make it $2000 or less..?? why the hell and i going to do that i don't understand.. by helping to sell one product from my office i can earn more than $300 already la..!! 10 products i can earn at least $4000, got bonus somemore.. and plus, where the hell am i gonna find time to go and STEAL cashcard..!!?!??
her lies doesn't make any damn sense AT ALL..!! wanna scold me just get straight-forward and stop using those kind of lies to get started.. that will only piss me off..
maybe she just doesn't know, that i've grown up, i've grown up, i've grown up, i've grown up
,i've grown up.. I'VE GROWN UP.. that simple FOUR letter word.. i need some freedom and need some dreams to make up my life.. she wants me to STUDY PROPERLY and find a
GOOD job next time.. but when is that next time..?? when is the next time for good job..?? 30 years later..?? cope myself in the shipyard for 30 years to backstab every supervisors and engineers in order to sit inside the manager room..?? she just don't get it that i don't wanna work in that so-called "corporate" world, one week of attachment already make me feel so sick of the shipyard.. REST OF MY LIFE?? FUCK OFF LA..
does she really thinks that i can get into the university..?? maybe if dad is a diamond mine owner, and he gave $150,000 to NUS to let me start.. i thought of going into university only when i was young, and because i still don't know about the world yet, and i think that it's simple as ABCDEFGH..
anyway, nothing is gonna stop my dreams from going on.. not even her.. i know what i am doing.. i truthfully know..
and we will walk till the end 7:06 PM