Sunday, February 12, 2006
its already 5 am, the last day of new year..15 days.. its just like waking up from another dream.. the best dream i had ever had.. the sweetest dream i had ever dream of.. i don't feel any hate, not any grumbling, all i had in my mind was just
you, its unfair though, but there isn't more i should have ever ask for..
"just a gentle whisper, tell me that you're gone..
leaving only memories, where did we go wrong..."
nothing went wrong actually, its just how it come, how it go.. just that you're nobody to judge that this is a fuck-and-go relationship.. it may be for yourself, but i know it myself the most, it is not.. i could have been thinking that friends are more important sometimes, but we've been holding this friendship for like 7 years, maybe you can't overlap them, but you're still as important as they do in my life, you had something i couldn't find in them..
i love the way you called me darling,
i love the way you're willing to mix with my gang,
i love the way you talk to and chat with my grandma and my family,
i love the way you hug and ask did i miss you,
i love the most sincere "i love you" you would to me,
i love the way you tap my chest and ask did i smoke,
i love the way you get straight forward and saying that i'm not decisive enough,
i love the way you told me you'd never leave me, neither do i..
"yi ba huo cai ran shao wo de xin,
han leng ye li dang zhu le qian jing.."
everyday i wake up, every night before i fell asleep, the first thing i would ask myself is, when am i going to hit my position..? i'm desperate too.. i had enough of my hanging out life now, it's time for me to do something different.. maybe elderly may think that this is just being stupid, since young, whenever you see a BIG bungalow, a posh car, high class restaraunt, your parents would just tell you "aiya this one belongs to rich people one la... ... ...", "this one only rich people buy one.. .. ..", is rich and poor decided by fate through the moment you're borned.??
now you insist that i can't do it, or maybe he thinks that i'm just dragging her down, well, i'll prove it to you the other way round.. kill me unless..
"i will always love you, i will always stay through..
there's no one who loves you like i do..."
i'll be waiting, and i don't care how long its gonna take,
and we will walk till the end 4:53 AM
