Sunday, February 26, 2006
have you ever thought of what between a career and a woman..??
when a man has got a great successful career, but he doesn't have any girls to share with him this success, the feeling is totally worse than lonely and for nothing..
but when a man has got a great woman like my baby, but he doesn't has got a really successful career, it's as sickening..
today has been the first month since we actually come together, previous relationships were so successful, as for first month for normal couple are always the sweetest and where they got to know each other.. but to me, there're really too much obstacles this time, it's really much more than i could expect.. i thought that we would really go out fine just as what previous all are, but well, this is a challenge though, obstacles always make couples fonder, i agree..!!
maybe he would take this as a pulling down or holding back each other, but well, to me, no one actually wants me to go all out and fight for a better position more than she does, since then, i don't see why is this still consider a holding back..!!
was at the coffee bean with jane just now after a talk to him, i really really really feel like telling him that if one of us has to quit, please make it me.. but if i really had said that, who knows the consequences might be worse.. maybe not only me, but dear would too.. and if dear does, millard and jane would be as pissed and they might quit as well, as what i heard from jane.. thanks god i change my mind last night..
he ask me to put myself in his shoe and think about how he is feeling now as if stucked in the middle.. why don't he actually put himself into my shoe as well to think that i can't feel the care and motivation he has done for me so far since the beginning.. i admit that i'm just slack, but now, i'm fighting.. me too don't want her to fight alone, since there're so many executive and managers out there chasing her, i believe you choose me for a real reason baby..
anyway, maybe time will prove.. even if time don't, i will.. my lexus 736 will..!!
**special msg**thanks for sharing with me everything darling, thanks for pushing me on, i can no longer imagine how would it be without you to share my dream and journey..i love you.. =)
and we will walk till the end 7:12 PM
